We talked for a while and we knew we started liking each other. A couple
of weeks after I met him online and he asked for my phone #. I gave it
to him and I talked to him for like 2 hours straight. If he wasn't from
another State I would have met up with him but he lived across the U.S.
(which really wrecks because I have no idea what this guy looks like).
We talked every day from then on. We started falling in love with each
other. (I know it sounds like a fairy tale). We both had messed up lives
with our parents and friends (drugs too) but we made each other
He was one of those fobby gangsta boys (I'm drawn to bad boys) and he
did get in trouble with the cops. He wasn't a citizen and the Korean
embassy was after him too trying to put him in the army in Korea (and
never let him come back!). He decided to hide out for a while and came
to San Francisco to stay at my house. My dad was on a business trip (as
always) and I told my mom he was my tutor from 4th grade (did I mention
that I was 14 then). The thing that shocked me was that she actually
bought it (rule # one to all those kids out there: If you want
something/or say need your parents to trust you...stay home and study
and get good grades and stay away from the opposite sex - it will pay
off later on). I didn't know what he looked like.
It was like a blind love and blind
promises. But to me it showed that he didn't care what I looked like
outside but what I showed internally. When I got to the airport I called
him. We actually bumped into each other. We looked at each other and
gave each other the biggest hug and didn't let go for a while. For the
next 2 weeks he stayed with me. I loved him more everyday. It made me
realize so many things when I was with him. Butterflies and pink fuzzy
bunnies filled the air. (He was also the guy that took my virginity away
from me). The only thing that broke us apart was my dad getting back
from his business trip early and the fact that one of my friends stabbed
me hard in the back and told my mother the truth. You know how Chinese
He got kicked out of my house and had to
return to V.A. He stayed for 4 more days @ travel lodge before he went
back to Virginia. My dad was so uptight on me but I actually got the
chance to sneak out and we met up at the metron. We went back to his
hotel from and I lay with him just smiling the whole time as he held me
tight. As if the moment wasn't sucky enough, he started crying. I was
sad and crying at the same time too but it made me understand that he
was real to me. (IT didn't matter if it was such a far relationship and
if he was 4 years older then me.) All that mattered was that we have so
much good intentions and love for each other. He made me go back home
because he didn't want my dad to worry (plus my dad had anxiety...yea
yea i know I'm a horrible daughter) and I got practically killed. The
day he left, I was locked in my room crying.
My dad has killed all communication
between us. He even disabled my cell phone from calling. Then about an
hour later my guy called me and he was leaving on the train. He told me
to not cry and to always have faith and never give up...I actually
believed him and stayed with him for a really really long time.
It's January 2002 right now, I am almost
17...me and him are still the same...only communication over the phone
like hours a day but the day I always dreamed of is coming closer (the
weird thing is that we can talk about the stupidest stuff but for some
reason we find it very entertaining). I really didn't believe it but me
and him actually made it this far and are even more madly in love.
The weird thing is that I never thought
life would work out like this. I have been with a whole load of guys
before and even though they were so sweet to me and everything (no I'm
not talking about amateurs like 14 year olds, more like 17..16...hehe),
I never felt a thing for them. When I'm with him it feels like nothing
matters anymore and it seems like heaven has come to me. I guess that's
what you call true love.
And in the future (very soon in the
future), he and I will get married and spend our lives together through
thick and thin and nothing will separate us ever (I can put everything I
have on it). I will post some pictures later on...