After logging on maybe 2 or 3 times, there it was... a pop up message from a guy in America. "I think you should talk to me" it said. I checked out his details and photos and thought to my self, he seems nice. But I still replied " I don't think so". You live too far away. We exchanged a few other details not really much to mention, just the basics, who are you, where do you live kind of stuff." Oh ok then bye". That was that.

A week or two went by and then again this mystery person from USA pops on line again. "I don't think this is a mistake, I think you should talk to me" what are the odds I'd find you on line again"... So I agreed to chat.
 

We told each other lots of stories and ended up swapping photos. Mind you I nearly fell off my chair once I saw a recent photo of him, just perfect, my dream guy, and he had the personality to match. We met on line and chatted for a few weeks, and me being new to this whole internet computer stuff at the time was pretty challenging, but still I managed to work out how to chat.

SO there it was, the looks, the brains and personality and that sexy American voice. It had to be fate...

Days, week, months went by, conversations, chats on line, emails, and even watching each other sleep on the web cams. We had so much fun getting to know each other, without that physical contact. Of course everyone I spoke to, family and especially work friends and clients all thought I was crazy, trying to put me off with wild internet horror stories, but it didn't stop me. I even had a photo of Sean under my desk and in my car. (Even I thought I was going mad at times).

I couldn't wait any longer to meet this great guy. SO I purchased a plane ticket, quit my job, and organised to visit the USA, as soon as it was physically possible. I couldn't believe it was happening, and I know Sean didn't think it was happening either, until I was standing there in the airport in New York. Mind you, I had never even left the State where I live before this trip. I was scared...

Not knowing what to expect, I entered to foyer of the NY airport, thinking I had plenty of time before Sean would be there to meet me. But no... From behind me there was this voice.. that sexy deep strong American voice... "Do you need a hand with something"... I was in shock, I didn't even smile at first, I just stood there like an idiot. It felt like minutes, but of course only a second or two had passed before I finally smiled and hugged him. I wrapped my arms around this gorgeous 6ft 3 tall wonderful sexy American.

I stayed with him for 2 weeks.(24/7)We were inseparable...Everything I could have ever hoped for. Don't get me wrong, there were times where I could have had a nervous break down, just from the stress of the whole trip, but I left there in a bundle of tears... I just didn't want to come home.

So now I've been home only a week today, and it has been terrible. I feel like my heart is broken in two, and I have this empty place inside me where Sean once was. We have talked almost every day since I have been home, and we are planning for Sean to come to Australia to visit (since he has never been to Aus' before) in January 2003.

I am just living every day and breathing every breath in anticipation until that times come when I am in his arms again. I have been searching the Web for details on Green cards into the USA. I know in my heart, Sean is the one I have been living for my whole life to meet.

I know I am going to marry this man. It may take some time, but that will be nothing compared to the rest of my life, which I will be spending with him, looking into his eyes every morning for the rest of my life....

I'll keep you posted with updates. Wish us luck...

"Suzanne"