At the time I was in a very bad relationship
in which I wanted out, but was afraid to leave. I started going to chat
rooms to talk to new people, since there was no talking going on at
home. The second day I was in the chat room on Prodigy, I met the person
I have grown to love.
He came in the room and I said hello to him, and he replied with a witty
"Well hello there". I was never one to initiate talking to someone for I
was new to chat and also to typing. Within the first few minutes of us
talking we both felt as though we had been friends for years.
That night we sat talking in private chat
for almost 7 hours and didn't realize it at all. We found that we had a
lot in common, and made each other laugh a lot, and wanted to keep
chatting often. We exchanged email addresses, and were going to keep in
touch one way or another.
The following morning I got up early knowing that he would be getting
off of work then, and hoping he would be signing on. Only seconds after
I signed on his name appeared on my screen. An amazing feeling came
across me that I did not understand, but I liked a lot. Again that
morning we chatted about anything and everything for hours, learning
more and more about each other all the time.
Every morning from that time on we chatted at the same time every day
for hours upon end. We were so close, yet so far apart and already
wanting to change that. He was always there for me to make me laugh, and
feel good whenever I needed it.
After only a couple weeks of chatting we decided to hear each other's
voices for the first time on the phone, because chatting wasn't enough
anymore. We signed off, and I waited for my phone to ring with
excitement and nervousness. Finally, the phone rang and I answered. On
the other end I heard the most wonderful sound I had heard in my
life.... his voice. Four hours passed as we talked on the phone, and it
only seemed like minutes. With a smile upon my face as we hung up I
thought to myself, "Could meeting my sweet Dave be fate?" I guess only
time and fate will answer that question.
In late November we finally exchanged photos via snail-mail. He was
everything I had imagined and more. He started calling me his "little
hottie", and I knew then that there was more to come of this
relationship. We began talking more and more often, until we couldn't
afford the phone bills any longer. (Now we only talk every Sunday for a
limited time of five hours.)
Every time I sit down at my computer I take out a picture of him, and
sit it on my keyboard to look at. Just so I can feel like I am talking
to him almost face to face. When we talk on the phone I take the picture
out and hold it in my hand. The pictures are getting worn and old, but
he is sending me more soon. (The picture I really want, is of him and I
TOGETHER. Me with his loving arms around me.)
Now that we know we are both having feelings for each other, he decided
to ask me to come see him. There is only one thing stopping me from
running to his arms... money. Never in my life have I wanted anything
more. To touch him, hug him, kiss him, to look into his eyes and tell
him that I love him with every inch of my being. It is now February, and
I still haven't had the chance yet to see him face to face. We talk
about what it will be like when we are together, and I cry when we get
off the phone. If only it wasn't just a dream. If only I wasn't afraid
of flying... but I plan to do it only for him.
By this time it is March, and feelings have grown a lot stronger. I
still feel my heart jump every time I see him come online, and get
butterflies in my stomach when I hear his voice at the start of our
phone calls. We are still dreaming of that moment we will see each other
face to face for the first time, and things are looking like it will
happen soon. My silly self is having many fears at this point about the
"what ifs". What if things are different when we are together for real?
What if the connection we have is not as strong after I go there? Most
of all... What if we really are in love? What will happen then? Should I
move to him, or him to me? I tell him of my fears, and as usual he
comforts me. Decisions are made, and if this love is as strong as we
feel it is... we will both move exactly half way from him to me. He
feels that neither of us should move 14 hours away from what we call
home. Dave just wants it to be fair, and we plan to both move to a new
place and start a new life together.
April comes, and money is still keeping us from being able to be
together. Plans are made though. I will be going to him in June, even if
I have to take out a loan. He is worth it to me! Finally I am going to
get to look him in the face when we are finishing each otherís
sentences, and watch his eyes when he laughs about it. My dream is
coming true of getting to feel his arms around me, and nothing is going
to stop me from going to him.
To all of you that are afraid of what you feel for someone on the
Internet... Let fate decide what will happen, and always keep your heart
and mind open to this experience. I did, and it has brought me