Actually I don't even consider it as a "cyber relationship," for if you coin it that way, It's like it's only limited to the internet. what I'm going through right now, is so real for me.

My name's Laine, I'm 21 years old living in Manila, Philippines. I just signed up for an ad at Friend Finder last month. My only purpose of creating an ad is to find friends, the mere thought of finding love over the internet never occurred to me, really.

A couple days later, Joe answered my ad, among with other guys. but it was Joe that I found real interesting because we seem to have a lot of things in common. Joe lives in California, USA. He's 36 years old.

Within a week's time I stopped corresponding with the other guys who answered my ad. It was only with Joe that I kept in touch with. He started calling me up every single day. He would call me from the States and we'd talk for hours on the phone. We both fell in love with each other. 

I never realized I would ever love someone I haven't seen in real life. That idea was kinda weird to me, but here I am... lost in fascination and love with him. It's been almost a month now that we've been talking and all. We'd tell each other "I love you's" and "I miss you's" and all that sweet stuff. At that short time we've known each other, it felt as if we've known each other for a looong time.

Falling in love with Joe is such a wonderful thing. This feeling that runs deep in me, that I cherish with all my heart. It is a feeling that i'll take care of. We haven't seen each other yet, we've traded pictures and everything. I think this is really such a wonderful thing, to love someone completely. That we've gone past the physical barriers and accepted someone for the way they really are, for who they are. not because of what they look like and stuff.

I know that long distance relationships are REALLY hard. It's frustrating at times, because there's this longing... like for me, I long to finally hold him in my arms, and finally whisper in his ears and tell him how much I love him. To finally kiss him and hug him. I know he feels the same way. When we talk about that "longing" we have for each other, sometimes we end up in tears. but one thing's for sure. I'd never let distance break me apart. His love gives me the strength to go on each passing day loving him. He's my smile and strength, that no matter how rough my day gets, I know that when I think of him I'd smile... he's my happiness.

I long for the day we'd finally meet. He told me he's coming here to the Philippines real soon. he's really something, he gave me a necklace and a ring. I always wear them all the time because it makes me feel he's always with me wherever I go. I love him so much!

Well, that's my story. I hope you don't mind me telling you about that. I'd love to tell everyone what happens to us as time passes by.

"Laine"