Descriptions given out yet received with
anticipation and fear of when we would meet and if he really did care?
We were a decade apart but our hearts were too strong to part. Dare I
tell my friends and have them say what a crazy screwed up being I've
been, no I will not tell, Iíll keep this within.
As the days turned into weeks and the emails
flowed one strange day I got scared and froze as I said harsh things my
heart felt hurt and upset how could I hurt someone I've become so close
too? Over the next few days I thought and thought about what to say
to apologize. I told him the truth for it is all I can say and plead
with all my heart for forgiveness.
Prudently he forgave me, oh how I was so
happy and full of glee I had my friend back. We started talking on the
phone a lot - we talked about everything even, the sky. As my heart grew
more and more for this mystery man, something told me to keep talking
and to go on with him. So I did and month after we started talking on
October 16 2000 we said our "I love yous". As I gracefully swayed to
school and work all I can think about was this man that I loved but did
not know. I swallowed my pride and took a risk on October 20th I flew to
meet him with my friend in tow, had mom sign a paper that said I can go.
As I waited with butterflies in my stomach at the first sight of him I
knew my love was real, yet I was afraid to say one word even when he
gave me a hug I almost collapsed in his arms. I didnít talk to him for
that day, even met his parents and didnít know what to say.
The next day I knew I was ready to say
goodbye to my virginity for I had the person who would cherish it and
who I knew loved me. So on that night as we lay in bed I told him I had
a present for him. Nervously and happily we made love to each other
knowing that our love was stronger than ever. As I fell asleep that
night I cried for knowing I had just made love the way I had always
The goodbye was the hardest of all I cried
all the way home. When I got home my friends disowned me and told me I
was a fool for all I knew is what my heart felt. The days passed and so
did the weeks until that night my friends finally flew the white flag
and called it truce. My mom started talking to my love and knew just
what I felt. I waited and waited for him to come to me but I only saw
him in my dreams. On December 27 he finally came, didnít call and made
me upset. I was too scared and thought the worst so I called his father
and got all the info. The next day I went to him like he had in my
dreams hugged him and fell in love with him all over again. That night I
made love to him yet again the way I had that fateful night. So now we
are in the present and I still see him and I love him for he is the love
that I have been waiting for.