Nina:
It's strange how things happen... you are trudging through the mundane weary lanes of life when suddenly, out of nowhere, love walks in and touches your life in a way that you know that nothing could ever be the same again...
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She's From:   United States
He's From:     United States

I recently began falling for a wonderful guy I met online; I'll call him B.

We actually began talking on Yahoo about a year ago, but I was involved in a bad relationship.

     
  I didn't think much of it except he was a nice guy who actually wanted to talk, not cyber :). We had a lot in common; we are close in age (I'm 21 and he's 24), and we are both computer science majors. We kind of lost track of each other a few months later when I was breaking up with my boyfriend and he didn't log on to chat for a while. I was pleasantly surprised when he messaged me one night in May. I, of course, still thought nothing of it.. little did I know what was to come about. We had exchanged pictures in the past, but I had since reformatted my computer & he also didn't have mine, so we exchanged pictures again. 

He is so beautiful! After chatting a few times, he asked if he could call me. I was completely shocked! I really didn't expect it, and had never talked to someone on the phone from the internet that lived so far away (I'm in Birmingham, AL and he's in Dallas, TX). But of course I told him to call, without any hesitation. I was so nervous the first time he called me! But it was awesome to hear his voice. Since we've began talking, B has helped me learn to deal with things in my life that I have been avoiding for years. He made me think again, and feel again. I soon started another journal, which I haven't done in 3 or 4 years and is a very good way for me to get things out and explore myself and my feelings. 

I'm not sure when or how it happened, but I definitely started falling for him and I still am! A couple of weeks after we began talking on the phone (a pretty much nightly ritual), we started to speculate what it would like to meet each other. I started to get really excited. It's been so wonderful to genuinely get to know someone--no preconceptions or ideas about who they are or what they're like. I am absolutely dying to meet him! He is finally beginning to show his emotions toward me. He was very scared to begin with, as was I. I have always said long distance relationships never work, and here I am trying anyway. I can't help it, there is something very special about him. In fact, I was trying to date around, to get my mind off of him at first, but I didn't want to leave the house! I was wondering if I was missing his call, if he was thinking of me or wanting to talk. The night I went out on one date, I just had to tell B how I felt. 

When I got home, I told him I felt like I was betraying what I had with him. I didn't want to be with anyone else. I had rather talk on the phone or chat with him than be with anyone else in real life. I was so nervous and shaky while I was telling him that! It made me feel so vulnerable. But he was very sweet, as usual. If all goes well, I hope to move out to Dallas next June when I graduate. However, in the nearer future, we are planning to meet August 17th. The details haven't been worked out on whether we will meet halfway or he will just come here, but I'm sure we will definitely meet somehow! I am nervous, excited, happy and sad all rolled up into a big ball. I only say sad because I know leaving him will be so horrible! After that I will know what I am missing. But I feel like I will be so comfortable with him. I know him. 

Although I haven't been lucky enough to feel his arms around me or look into his eyes, I still know him & I know I will feel at home when I see him finally. He's such a wonderful guy, I'm just afraid I won't be good enough for him :) But to hear him tell me how much he likes me & is looking forward to meeting me gives me more confidence. I'm glad I'm getting the chance to share my story, because I know how silly I felt when I started developing feelings for someone who lives 12 hours away! I found this website and realized that it does happen, and it's so reassuring to get to read others' experiences. I'll let you know how the meeting goes next month :)

"Kristi"