We got along so well on the first night we
met in net, we typed and drew pictures for each other and we also had
Time passed so quickly before we noticed it,
we chatted till 5am when my mom stopped me and asked me to go to bed,
before I left we had a date in net the next day.
After that, we chatted often, sent photos to each other, and he later
gave me his phone number. Though he didn't ask, I gave him my phone
number too--as soon as he gave me don't know why I trusted him so much,
that was not like me, but I really did that at that moment!
After that we got in touch both by net chat
and by phone call. He gave me morning calls as well as called me at
night when my mom stopped me from coming to net, we talked about so much
things, friends, life, food, study, work and love.
He told me things happened in his area,
his study life in foreign country. He also told me many jokes he had
ever heard. He liked kidding me too, once he taught me Japanese, after I
followed him pronounce the words again and again, he laughed at me, I
asked why, he said, ¡°do you know what did you say just now? it¡¯s
¡®LOVE YOU!!¡¯ hey, you love me!¡± Hearing this, I pretended to be
angry, but in fact, I felt so sweet.
Another time I talked about the song ¡°I
will marry you tomorrow¡±, he laughed at me again, ¡°really? So fast, I
haven¡¯t got ready, but if you would like to do so, I don¡¯t mind.¡± I
felt he was so ¡°bad¡± that I wanted to go and beat him with my fist. I
felt I almost fell for him, I liked to hear his gentle voice. I like him
to say ¡°you are so lovely¡± or ¡°you are so pretty¡± or just ¡°Don¡¯t
be so naughty¡±¡
One day, I asked him to go to one chat
room which I often entered, I used my name Ann and he entered with the
name Annboy, he told me that he wanted others to consider us a couple
then no one would disturb us. At that night, he asked me again and again
to be his gf, finally I accepted, he told me he was so happy that he
wanted to give me a big hug and a kiss, I dreamt of that too, but how?
We lived so far and we were both too young to support ourselves to fly
to meet each other.
Things were not smooth later. I had to leave home to see my grandma for
some days, and after I returned back, his computer didn¡¯t work, though
we could still talked with each other through phone, but it was really
expensive, as foreign call between Singapore and China.
Also the day I returned back to school
was nearer and nearer, and I had to take a military training for about 2
weeks after I returned back to school, during this time, we couldn¡¯t
keep in touch. And we would be much busier after my new team and his new
job began, thinking about all this, I tried hard and finally decided to
leave him though I could feel I loved him and missed him so much. But
later, he phoned me and said that he would never give up, he would take
all the difficulties as challenges and our love could improve to be true
if we could stay up. My decision and plan were completely destroyed by
him, I can¡¯t help returning to him.
After that, he always gave me support when I was having a tough time
during my military training, he made me forget all the tiring things.
But after my military training, he got cooler to me and later he even
didn¡¯t reply my email and didn¡¯t give me a phone call. I¡¯ve no idea
why he do so, a bad idea floats in my mind¡ªhe want to abandon me! Why?
He don¡¯t like me any more? He has found another gf? He is too busy and
ignores me? All these thoughts are killing me. What should I do? I still
don¡¯t have the courage to call him and ask him why, I am afraid of
being refused directly by him, I feel I am dying!
5 Oct 2000
I just want to up date my story. My cyber bf called me yesterday telling
me that he ignored me just because he was really very busy and he really
missed me!! I was sooooo happy and excited to received his phone call
again. Later we chatted in net for a long while, I felt that he still
cares for me and he is very nice to me. He turns me on again!! I really
hope our relationship can keep forever!!!
Thanks for your web site, which really
gives me courage and confident to keep my cyber relationship!!