One guy, Ric was in a bad mood so
I chatted to him briefly, he seemed so nice
but I was very wary. From then, we'd chat if
I was online but I
never used my real name or gave out any details. At this point I was
about to be married and busy planning my wedding.
After a couple of months we exchanged
mobile numbers to text. One night I said he
could call me, It was so weird hearing a real voice.
He sounded different than
I'd imagined. I'm sure it was about
then I let him know id been using a different
name, he was quite shocked that I'd deceived
him for so long. Slowly we started to call
more regular. My wedding went ahead but by the month after we were
talking every day and my feelings were getting stronger.
He'd make my days
brighter, we'd talk about every subject under the sun. We changed our
phone plans to make it cheaper, using up 100 mins between us every day.
Eventually my husband found out how much we were talking and was not
happy, things started to go wrong in the marriage
and I know I was in
the wrong but I couldn't
stop. We'd stay up to all hours chatting online which didn't
help but Ric did try to do the right thing and persuade me to sort out
my marriage, as he said it was my real life,
it had to come first but it didn't, not to me,
I loved Ric, it was so hard to accept that you
can love someone you've never met but
I did, and still do, mad though
it may seem.
I had to go on a family holiday and
I dreaded it, how would I
get through the week without him. Thankfully I could use my phone but
only on the odd occasion. I remember being in tears before
I left. We tend to plan our lives around each
other, making sure we have at least
some contact every day, we have talked about meeting and
I'm sure we will one day soon, I'm
just scared cause what we have is so good and it would change, hopefully
for the better but there's always a chance it
would ruin what we've had for the past year and a half. I've
just separated from my husband and have 2 kids
so its not easy but Ric, just being there makes my life complete.
I'd never have
believed this could happen. I know Ric so well, his good and bad points,
his annoying habits, his thoughts his fears and he knows all of mine. I
don't know what the future holds for us, maybe
we have the best kind of relationship there is, who knows! One things
for sure he'll always be part of my life whether its in 'real life' or
not i dunno... we'll have to wait and see, I love him and want him more
than I've ever
wanted anybody, but, is that the great attraction, maybe its best kept
this way and our love will never die!