Sarah and Greg:
After having received a new computer for Christmas I logged onto a Christian dating service. A friend of mine had dared me to, and since I can't say no to a dare...
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She's From:   United States
He's From:     United States

My name is Lena, and I am 16 years old...

I know I may be young, but I definitely experienced what love was all about...

  Last year, I got AOL, for the first time. EVERYONE had AOL, so it was a great way to keep in touch with my friends, and also a great way to meet new people...

WELL, one day, my friend Gina and her boyfriend invited me into a private chat, and they also invited Gina's boyfriend's friend into the room. His name was Nub*, and we immediately hit it off. Of course, we were just friends... We had so much in common.. I was 15 at the time, and he was 17.. For the first 3 months of us talking, we got to know each other better, exchanged pictures, so on and so forth... 

 

 



   

 

 
       
 

Well, during that time, I started developing these feelings for him.. we finally talked on the phone..and I loved his voice! We eventually started talking on the phone more often, and in that process, we grew incredibly close... Every second of Every day, I would think about him... it was NOT funny! I always thought to myself,, 'how could you have feelings for someone you've never met!?!?!" I never seemed to come up with that answer... how can you answer that? It just happens... I never intended to "fall in love on AOL" cause I had heard of that before, and thought it was ridiculous, but it truly isn't! Anyways, after many months, we finally agreed on meeting, but I didn't know how to do so without my mother finding out... Coming from an Armenian family, my mother is strict about things like that...

So I told her i was going to a party, and that my friend was going to pick me up... I got dressed, and my friend DID pick me up, but she dropped me off at the mall, where I was supposed to meet him. Well, I walked around the mall for a while, waiting for him to page me... and finally, he did! I was sooo nervous, my heart was going to explode! :) I knew he was a nice decent guy, because he's friends with many of my friends, so I wasn't worried about him harming me in any way... I went outside, where he was supposed to be, and sure enough, there he was! He saw me and smiled, and I smiled back, and suddenly, I felt at ease... (we waited 11 months before meeting... and during that 11 months, we talked on the phone everyday!! I grew incredibly close to him). I got into his car, and we drove off! He took me to the Santa Monica Pier, which is right on the beach! We ate at an Italian restaurant, and talked...laughed...gazed into each others eyes...

After eating, we went walking on the beach, held hands...everything was perfect! We then found a bench in a secluded area right on the beach,, no one could see us! We sat there, and just held hands, and gave little kisses. I felt so complete...I felt so close to him...closer than I've ever been with anyone ever...I had this feeling inside me, an incredible feeling, too intense to verbalize. I felt like laughing and crying at the same time. Finally, FINALLY I was with him, holding him, kissing him...11 months is a long time to wait to meet someone, especially someone you felt so close to, and were in love with. We then went on the ferris wheel, twice! :)

At the end of the night, he said he had a surprise for me... I was completely clueless! We got into the car, and drove to another part of the beach... no one was there but us... he drove his car onto the sand...he told me to stand outside of the car... and I did... 10 seconds later, I heard "our song"!! He put the cd in, and raised the volume up real high.

He came by me, wrapped his arms around me, and we started to slow dance... it was so romantic... I wanted to cry, and sure enough, I did... :*) Afterwards, we went walking, and a man was selling roses... Nub* bought one for me, and said that there were more to come... Then we came across a man who painted pictures... and he said he would paint a portrait of me.... he asked me if I wanted to change anything about myself, and I said that I wouldn't mind changing a few things... but the painter than said "Well, if he likes you (referring to Nub*), it doesn't matter what you look like".... Nub* replied "No, I don't like her.... I LOVE her"... At that moment I wanted to melt! I started blushing! That was the first time he had said he loved me, in person! That night was so
incredible!

I went home and couldn't fall asleep... I could still feel his hand in mine, and I could still smell the scent of the rose, and could still envision his smile, and the way he just stared into my eyes, as if I was the most important thing to him. Months went by, and we grew very close... as if our hearts were "one". I knew everything about him, and he knew everything about me... I couldn't have been happier.. We would wake up at 2 in the morning, and talk till 7 in the morning, and this was on weekdays! We were so "in love"...

One day, I came home from school, and I was supposed to get ready to see him.. I was so excited, because I hadn't seen him in a week and a half... I took a shower, and dressed up really nice... He was supposed to meet me at exactly 6 o'clock, at the mall. My mom took me there, and told me I had to be home by 9. I waited at the restaurant in which he told me to meet him at... It was already 6:25, and he hadn't shown up yet... I decided to wait another couple minutes until he showed up... 'maybe he's stuck in traffic' I thought to myself. The time became 6:45... and he still hadn't showed up... "Well, maybe he had some last minute things to do", I thought. "But he would call me, it's not like him to keep me waiting"..."but then again, maybe his cell phone isn't working, and he couldn't reach a pay phone"..... My mind became bombarded with these thoughts!

Finally at 7:00, I got up, and decided to try and call him. I went to the nearest pay phone, and called his cell phone... it rang about a zillion times! He didn't pick it up...I didn't want to call his house, cause I didn't want to disturb his parents... so I kept calling his cell phone, and also paged him a couple times... it was 7:25 and still hadn't gotten a response from him... so I called the house. After about 100 rings, his mother picked up in hysterics! "Hello, it's Lena, what has happened??" I asked her...

"Ohhh Lena, sweetheart! Nub* got into a car accident! My Baby is gone!! My precious son is gone" She yelled, sobbing hysterically. I dropped the phone, and felt my knees go weak. Could this be happening? Did my boyfriend, my one true love, the one I couldn't live with, die? Noo, it's not possible! Suddenly I couldn't breathe.. and fell to the floor. I started screaming, crying, gasping for air as I sobbed...

Throughout that night, I cried....I cried so much that my eyes were burning. I looked through all the letters he had written me, and looked at all the pictures we had taken together...and tried convincing myself that he was at a better place now, watching over me... I went online the next day... I really don't know why... I just had this sudden urge to go online.... I opened my mailbox, and there was a letter from him... I hesitated before opening it, but I did open it... He had written it to me before he got into the car accident... He wrote: "Hey Sweety, I'm just about to leave now, to meet you at the mall... I can't wait to see you. I just want to tell you that I love you more than anything in this world, and am so glad your mine... Love you always, Nub".

I burst into tears..."WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO HIM???? OUT OF EVERYONE, WHY HIM? HE WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO REALLY KNEW ME, WHO REALLY UNDERSTOOD ME, OH GOD, PLEASE I NEED HIM, I LOVE HIM" I started screaming...

The funeral was the worst thing I had ever gone through...His sister came up to me, and told me that after the car crash, he said my name...She then took something out of her purse, and handed it to me... it was a ring... she said that he had bought it for me, and was going to give it to me that day... I looked at the ring and on the inside, the words "I love you 4 ever" were engraved.

I'm sorry if this story was a bit long, but this is MY love story... my own personal experience.. For all of you who say that we are too young to fall in love, I hope you have a different perspective after reading this... because love has no age... Love is the most beautiful thing anyone can experience, but also the most painful... I hope my love story, reminds you of the beauty of love, the importance of saying "I Love you" those three little words with an enormous meaning... but most of all, of appreciating what you have...before it's too late...

"Lena"