I was kind of an addict at first, spending
most of my free time on the web. I had my share of Internet boyfriends,
But I am not here today to tell you about them, I'm here to tell you
about my best friend Chris. I met Chris in a MTV chat room on AOL back
I've been talking to him ever since. A thought came to me back then that
I was attracted to him. But I forgot about it, thinking, he is a good
online friend, and he lives in Michigan, (I live in California) the only
time I'd ever get to meet him is if I invited him to my wedding, if and
when I ever got married.
I don't remember exactly what we were
talking about that day we met, but I do know we "clicked". "He has such
a sweet spirit", I thought. Throughout these past few years we've kept
in contact with each other through e-mail and instant messages. Mostly
we talked about everyday "nothings", nothings that mattered a lot to me.
Like what was going on in our lives. We've seen each other go through a
lot. Especially relationships. I guess over the years I started having
feelings for him. Deep down inside somewhere, I was developing these
strong feelings for him, that I wasn't aware of until recently.
Whenever I talked about him to my friends, mother, anybody, my whole
face brightened up. It was obvious to them that I liked him. I just
didn't know it yet. A few months ago I broke up with my last boyfriend.
Chris had been single for some time also. So I started liking him even
more. One day in January, Chris left me a message saying he had
something important to tell me. I got back from class (I'm a college
student), and he told me he was moving to California! At first I was
shocked. Then I immediately got excited thinking, oh I'm going to have
so much fun with him when he gets here! He decided that he wanted to
move to my area, so I will get to see him often when he gets here!
That's right, he's not here yet. He'll be moving here in a few months
though. Although I have not met him in person yet, we are planning to
see each other soon. I'm planning on flying to Michigan to see him,
before he moves here.
Also this past January was the time when I first heard his voice on the
telephone. It's strange, after 3 years of knowing each other in the
online environment, we finally talked on the phone! I was so nervous!
Hearing his voice for the first time was awkward at first, then I got
used to his voice the more times I heard it, and fell madly in love with
his voice and him.
Chris has been hurt a lot in his past relationships. I seriously don't
know how girls could treat him like they do. He is the sweetest creature
that I've ever met! He is the kind of person that can always cheer you
up when you're down. The kind of person online that always gives you
<hugs> to brighten your day. Since he's announced that he was coming to
CA, I've dropped hints to him that I liked him. Of course he said he
could already tell. The scariest thing was I wasn't scared to tell him
how much I feel about him. Although I was really, really scared to know
his reaction to my deep feelings for him. I'm a dense person. I'd never
imagine in the world that he'd have the same feelings for me too! I was
joking with him once, saying, "Maybe you shouldn't come to CA" then he
said, "Why not?", then I said, "Because I'd fall for you", then he said,
"Well, what makes you think that I wouldn't fall for you too?" I was so
surprised when he said this. It was when I first realized that I had a
chance with him.
Chris later told me that he had liked me too for a very long time, but
didn't do or say anything because of "geographical reasons". I was
shocked when he said this, because I felt the same way. This past month
we have been acting as if we are "going out" with each other. However he
is waiting to ask me out in person first. As soon as he gets some extra
money , I'm going to see him for the weekend.
( a few weeks later)
Well in about an hour I'm heading home from school. I'm going to fly to
Michigan to see Chris tomorrow! I'm so nervous, but it'll be worth it!
Details to follow.
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